I'm currently very emotionally upset and confused about (you guessed it) a girl. I'm a boy btw just in case that's important. I've written alot but pls bear with really would appreciate any help.
Basically, I started talking to her when she was going through what was effectively her relationship with her bf coming to and end, and we got pretty close. And I mean like we'd kiss and always meet and everything (I've never had any sort of relationship before this).
She soon inevitably broke up with her boyfriend but told me she didn't want anything serious rn which I understood. She said we weren't exclusive, and, as an example, said she couldn't be annoyed if I got with someone else. I didn't realise that it was her intention to have lots of casual sex with someone other than me, to get over her ex (who she says she still has feelings for). She said this casual sex couldn't be with me because she actually liked me and wants something to happen one day.
I was hurt by this because I don't believe in casual sex and it upsets me that she would want to separate sex and love and then start a relationship with me, but I acted like I didn't mind.
Then she canceled an arranged meeting with us to meet someone (who we both work with - everyone at work knows about me and her as well) who had been messaging her and made clear that he would have a casual sexual relationship with her. I then told her everything I felt and she apologised and apologised and we haven't spoken much since. She then took this kid to her house.
The main reason why I'm upset is that from day one she made me more than a friend. If we could just be friends for a while I could understand, but she wants me to still kiss her and meet her and share things with her, whilst she ****s someone else. And I just don't understand how one day she's going to wake up ready for a relationship and just phone me up when she's having a casual relationship with somebody else.
Am I bad person for my attitude to sex? Is she right? Because I am really really hurt and messed up.
I am meeting her soon to talk and I don't know what to do.
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