OK, so guys I have a very special secret. I'm a 25 y/o virgin despite having an early start with the girls -first flings in the kindergarten and had my first kiss in first grade. All was sunny and fine until H.S. There I got sick and this resulted in malnourishment that not only took a toll on my physical health but also on my emotional and I became an anxious/depressed loner. No one back then knew it was from that physical thing, my parents and I thought it was just growing pains, you know hormones and stuff. It was hormones, but not because of growing up but because of becoming malnourished. And believe it or not - I started attracting nasty behavior towards me. The same thing continued in college. No GFs, no sex.
I've taken some measures about my health and there are days when I am completely anxiety and depression-free. But my self-esteem is still pretty low due to the years of abuse and name calling, so I have to remind myself of the things I like about myself everyday and treat myself like a loved one. You know what? I've noticed that on days when I feel comfortable in my skin I attract more positive people and positive behavior from others as a whole and I don't make a fuss on little problems. I guess that's why there are some people we find attractive despite their physical or other flaws, they just project self-confidence and love. And perhaps that explains why sometimes narcissists are very popular. However, loving yourself doesn't need to go into that extreme and narcissism is still rooted in low self-esteem. But really nice people that are comfortable with themselves really attract others, they have that glow, aura that attracts others to them and make them like them, sorta like some of the actresses of Golden Age Hollywood or Farrah Fawcett for a somewhat more recent example. Do you believe in this vibes things? :)
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