Sometimes, when I feel gross about myself, I don't feel attractive enough to be intimate with my husband.
I, then, feel horrible for not giving him what he deserves just because of my personal troubles. But it happens sometimes. I will totally shy away from anything that will involve him and I sexually..even though I love sex with him.
It's almost as if my mind tries to convince me that I don't have the right to be 'sexy' if I don't look a specific way.
Intellectually, I know that's wrong, but my feelings about myself tell me that I don't deserve to enjoy sex or closeness...at least at those times.
I have told him how I feel and that it has nothing to do with him. I love and totally desire him, I just wish I could enjoy myself enough to let him enjoy me too.
There are other times when I feel fine and don't dwell on anything negative, thank goodness! This is the more common theme to our marriage. The other issue arises off an on.
Anyway, just wondering if any other ladies go through this.
Thanks! XO
I, then, feel horrible for not giving him what he deserves just because of my personal troubles. But it happens sometimes. I will totally shy away from anything that will involve him and I sexually..even though I love sex with him.
It's almost as if my mind tries to convince me that I don't have the right to be 'sexy' if I don't look a specific way.
Intellectually, I know that's wrong, but my feelings about myself tell me that I don't deserve to enjoy sex or closeness...at least at those times.
I have told him how I feel and that it has nothing to do with him. I love and totally desire him, I just wish I could enjoy myself enough to let him enjoy me too.
There are other times when I feel fine and don't dwell on anything negative, thank goodness! This is the more common theme to our marriage. The other issue arises off an on.
Anyway, just wondering if any other ladies go through this.
Thanks! XO
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