Long story short. I have M.E and was bed-bound years ago - I'm 22, nearly 23. I recovered enough by 21 to start A-levels, but did it distance learning. So far I have one A-level and one AS level. I (probably foolishly now thinking about it) d cided to do 1 A-level in a year alongside a final A2 and applied to uni...got an offer from my dream uni. All was going fantastic.
Last few weeks I've had a pretty major relapse and know it's physically impossible with the time I've got to do the work and get the grades I need for uni next year. So I'm going to focus on the one A2 level and defer the other. But I'm gutted - everyone I know knows I've got into these great universities and it's all I've chatted about enthusiastically all year. I feel so disappointed and also worried about my age because I'll be 24 by the time I go to uni. I've sunk into real depression and have even had suicidal thoughts. I often look at my life and feel like I'm never going to get anywhere. I've been stuck in an educational rut for years.
I was so excited about starting this year, but I know doing all six exams is impossible given my health and state of mind. I'm lucky that I have supportive parents (though they too are disappointed), a nice boyfriend and good friends - yet I'm worried about what everyone will think. If I defer it'll have taken me three years to get A-levels - not too drastic if you start at 16, but if you start at 21 not so much.
I know I have to accept what's happened, but after years of struggling I thought I was finally getting a break, only for this to happen :(
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