i finally filed for divorce and completely shut my stbxh out. he tried reaching out to me from other numbers but i blocked all of them out. every time he'd send me a message, they'd always be so negative, saying such mean things and trying to some how make me be at fault for the demise of our marriage.
i still feel as though i am to week to even have a conversation with him because i am still in love with him. and i really don't know why. this man was AWFUL to me:mad::mad: and I gave him nothing but all of me and all the love and care that a wife could possibly give. i think if i could have given my my actual body, i could have lol.
anyway, he calls my job the other day due to an incident that happened with my sister and i gave him a tiny bit of conversation. he told me how much he loves me and wants to be with me, he's miserable without me, blah , blah, blah!! i want nothing more than to have the man that i wish that he could have been to me. but i know he's still not ready. i can tell from some of the other things that he was saying to me.
now i feel like because i gave him a little conversation, i have lost control of my feelings and back to square one. He has not called my job since and i'm happy about that, but a part of me still wants to know what was that all about. He texted my daughter and told her that he was going to bring her b-day gift, but i emailed him and told him that a simple text would suffice and that the gesture was very kind. then i blocked him out again. am i handling this well? i'm just trying to erase him completely. we have nothing that holds us together.
i still feel as though i am to week to even have a conversation with him because i am still in love with him. and i really don't know why. this man was AWFUL to me:mad::mad: and I gave him nothing but all of me and all the love and care that a wife could possibly give. i think if i could have given my my actual body, i could have lol.
anyway, he calls my job the other day due to an incident that happened with my sister and i gave him a tiny bit of conversation. he told me how much he loves me and wants to be with me, he's miserable without me, blah , blah, blah!! i want nothing more than to have the man that i wish that he could have been to me. but i know he's still not ready. i can tell from some of the other things that he was saying to me.
now i feel like because i gave him a little conversation, i have lost control of my feelings and back to square one. He has not called my job since and i'm happy about that, but a part of me still wants to know what was that all about. He texted my daughter and told her that he was going to bring her b-day gift, but i emailed him and told him that a simple text would suffice and that the gesture was very kind. then i blocked him out again. am i handling this well? i'm just trying to erase him completely. we have nothing that holds us together.
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