Annon or delete, please.
Basically I was with a girl who I truly love and she used to abuse me. It started verbally, escalated into her physically attacking me on numerous occasions. Mostly when she was drunk.
I came home one night drunk and we got into a big argument where she accused me of cheating on her and started attacking me. I pushed her off and accidentally thumbed her eye, causing a bruise, she kicked the **** out of me, causing bruises all over my body and threw me head first into a coffee table. I called the police, they showed up, arrested me and now I'M being charged with domestic assault because she had a bruise on her eye, and I was drunk. She then told the police I was strangling her, and punching her, even though she had no marks on her at all and I had no marks on my knuckles. I've never raised my hands to her at all. She has subsequently began telling anyone who'll listen all about how I 'tried to kill her'. Urg.
So we've since broke up and she's completely cut off all contact. The things is, I'm really struggling to live my life. I feel empty and just so depressed. From going to speaking/seeing each other everyday to completely no contact at all is literally killing me. I can't stop thinking about her and I miss her constantly.
She is dating some guy now, and when I realised it, it completely destroyed me. It's been a month a half and I honestly thought that we'd be talking trying to work through our problems.
I get that she abused me, but honestly there were times in our relationship where she'd say and do these things specifically to upset or annoy me and I did shout at her and say nasty things :( I probably deserved the abuse I got.
I've lost a stone cause I can't eat. I've barely left the house. I just feel so low and miss her so much. It's like I lost a part of me, and she never wants to speak to me again :(
Does anyone have any solutions? Been in this situation before?
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