I'm three years into a marriage. I got married at 21, young I know. Ever since I have been with my husband it has been an uphill battle. I'm going to try to make this short and sweet.. For starters, his dad's side of the family does not like me. I attended school with his step-sister and she hated me because I was a 'loser'. Secondly, we fight all the time. I feel as though he is never happy no matter what I do. My friends have even asked me what makes him happy. He doesn't like a lot of my friends or their significant others because he thinks they are 'dorks'. He believe he is so above everybody in the world. He constantly makes fun of my BEST FRIEND behind her back because she is fat. Even though I have begged him to stop and explained how good of a friend she is. He would not allow me to go to the tanning bed, gym, or get my hair done when we first started dating. I have since then told him that was unacceptable. When he drinks he gets very angry and used to break things and fight all the time. He still does this from time to time. I am an animal lover, he hates animals and even told me he was going to kill them one night when he was drunk. He has tried to fight my dad. Luckily my dad is a great man and very forgiving so now they have a good relationship. I have had severe panic and anxiety disorder and it has gotten worse since being with him. He is unpredictable and explosive. He dictates every move I make. He does drive by s to make sure I am where I say I am. If I need space and want to alone he finds me, some way or another. If I spend $30 at meijer, he knows 2 seconds later because he constantly keeps tabs on me. I'm just so unhappy, and I have been for a very long time. My anxiety holds me back so much. But I have recently gotten on medication which has really helped, I'm SO thankful. We have tried counseling but he always thinks the counselors are stupid. I have seen a counselor over a year every two weeks at lea st and he makes fun of her and puts her down every time I go. He demands I tell him everything we talked about. But, when I want to leave him, it's like he won't let me. He grabs on for dear life and claims he's a changed man. Any advice is greatly appreciated. Sometimes I feel so confused and alone.
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