I've always been an extremely negative person, and it's something I am really starting to hate. I avoid eye contact with strangers, and can't stand it when strangers try and make conversation with me. I avoid doing things/ going places because I "just know" I won't enjoy it. I feel down about every aspect of my life- my appearance, studies, relationships etc. Before a party I always think to myself "no one will want to talk to me", and so I go in with a negative mindset and obviously no one wants to talk to the unapproachable girl with a face like a smacked arse. I get jealous if any of my friends has something good happen in their life, and love nothing better than seeing someone as miserable as me. I always put people down in my head to make me feel better about myself. I've spiraled into a pit of misery where all I want to do is sit in my room and avoid all human contact.
I'm fed up of this. I need to change. I'm 19 and am wasting my life becoming a spiteful and bitter person. I do have friends, but they are nearly all through association rather than friends I've made on my own. I want to be one of those cheery, happy people who everyone wants to spend time with and people are just naturally drawn towards them. Can I become one of these people? How? Am I too late? Am I just going to have to accept a life of hissing at sunlight and rolling my eyes at anyone who appears to be having fun?
I'm fed up of this. I need to change. I'm 19 and am wasting my life becoming a spiteful and bitter person. I do have friends, but they are nearly all through association rather than friends I've made on my own. I want to be one of those cheery, happy people who everyone wants to spend time with and people are just naturally drawn towards them. Can I become one of these people? How? Am I too late? Am I just going to have to accept a life of hissing at sunlight and rolling my eyes at anyone who appears to be having fun?
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