I'm sending myself mad.
I've been with my boyfriend for over 2 years, but when it comes to him going out without me I just find it really hard to deal with. I get these visions of him cheating or something horrendous even though I'm 99% sure he won't do something like that.
What makes it worse is it feels like he doesn't tell me I can go unless he knows I already have plans or it's too late for me to arrange anything.
I'm 16 and he's just turned 18, and he has his own friends who I'm pretty convinced aren't too fond of me and I have no qualms about him spending time with them, but when it comes to going out (especially when it involves alcohol) makes me just feel awful.
I think it might be jealousy, because he's possibly my only real friend and him going out with his friends without me is a reminder that I am almost completely dependent on him yet he has a wide range of options...
But I don't have any right to be like this! We're young and he should be allowed to go out without me being on his back, and I shouldn't have to sit here feeling rubbish. I just don't know :(
I'm completely neurotic and he's so relaxed, it's a real 'opposites attract' thing. He knows I feel like this, but it seems to keep happening anyway. I'm feeling like a pretty crappy, needy girlfriend but...how do I stop?
I've been with my boyfriend for over 2 years, but when it comes to him going out without me I just find it really hard to deal with. I get these visions of him cheating or something horrendous even though I'm 99% sure he won't do something like that.
What makes it worse is it feels like he doesn't tell me I can go unless he knows I already have plans or it's too late for me to arrange anything.
I'm 16 and he's just turned 18, and he has his own friends who I'm pretty convinced aren't too fond of me and I have no qualms about him spending time with them, but when it comes to going out (especially when it involves alcohol) makes me just feel awful.
I think it might be jealousy, because he's possibly my only real friend and him going out with his friends without me is a reminder that I am almost completely dependent on him yet he has a wide range of options...
But I don't have any right to be like this! We're young and he should be allowed to go out without me being on his back, and I shouldn't have to sit here feeling rubbish. I just don't know :(
I'm completely neurotic and he's so relaxed, it's a real 'opposites attract' thing. He knows I feel like this, but it seems to keep happening anyway. I'm feeling like a pretty crappy, needy girlfriend but...how do I stop?
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