| Hey all, I'm at a very loose end right now and not sure what to do. Recently I was diagnosed officially with depression and was placed on medication to help and I am being given counselling. I have absolutely no self-esteem and hate everything I am, look like, things I do. And I blame myself for everything that has gone wrong in the past year such as the break-up with my first proper boyfriend who I was insanely in love with (and still am). (Yes, I am gay.) I also have a few issues with alcohol, self harming and some minor drug use as well (not really selling myself am I?). I haven't been on dates or started talking to guys until very recently but since I have, I've began dating this guy who I think is absolutely lovely, he's a genuine nice guy but the thing is, I don't think I'm good enough for him. I'm scared to develop any sort of emotional attachment because of a number of reasons such as me messing it up, him not being able to cope with my erratic and sometimes violent behavior, and I just don't want to get hurt again. How do I deal with this, how do I stay calm and make sure that it's all going to be fine - I don't want to push him away but I'm scared that if it turns into something more he isn't going to like me for my problems. I just want some gentle advice and help :( Please? | |||
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