| Okay so basically I just wanted to know do other people's dad behave in this way, as I know from my own he behaves completely differently in front of anyone other than he does to my mum, brothers, sisters and I. It feels like I'm always having to make exceptions for him because although I'd hardly say we have a good relationship I do appreciate that he works hard to earn money to support us all and hardly ever indulges on himself. But ever since I can remember whenever something is going badly for him he always finds a way to take it out on us, I used to think it was just normal when I was younger that he'd beat us if we misbehaved but looking back it was not acceptable and more often than not was not deserved for example one time he asked me to pass him a box of pasta from the side and I reached for it but dropped it by accident (it didn't spill anywhere the lid was still on) I apologised and picked it up but he just started screaming at me an d beat me and sent me to bed with no dinner (I was around 8) and another example is him coming upstairs picking me up by my ankle and chucking me against the wooden frame of my bed.He hit my older brother a lot more. The thing is he always calls me a bitch, calls us useless and just an hour ago he picked up my little brother and threw him on the stairs because he didn't come inside when first told and I said don't do that and he threw a shoe at me and said you are all worthless. You just can't win with him we're all good - don't do drugs/smoke and work really hard getting all As and volunteering but we just never seem to be good enough for him. I don't feel I can express myself in the house for instance if we're Sat in the lounge and I try to make conversation my dad just says oh just shut up you idiot I want peace. I've not let my dad come to a parent's evening for the last few years as he always says he'll go to look good but when I get there he'd just moan the whole time saying stuff like I have a business to run why did you drag me here and he'd always find a way to put me down despite all my teachers having positive things to say about me to the extent that at the last one I informed him of I started crying and had to just pretend to my dad that we'd seen all the teachers. Literally a day does not go by when he won't shout at my mum for about an hour about the business and the problem is not my mum's budgeting as he always tries to blame her it's actually him not being assertive enough with people letting them take advantage. To top it all off (he's in the army too) one minute he says I'm going to war the next he says he's not - he's going to give my mum a heart attack. He burdened my older sister with all this stress telling her the business was going to go insolvent right before a uni exam and it just happens that it was that exam that stopped her from getting a first she had worked so hard for it too - my mum told me this my older sist er wouldn't' t like to say this. Yet outside the house he puts on this display that he is the nicest Christian person ever.I'm just fed up of being around him I love him because he's my dad but you only get one life and he is just so negative and unpleasant to be around. |
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