My husband and I have been married for a year and a half. When we were dating, he wanted to wait until we were married to have sex, which I was ok with since I am traditional as well. Well, we would fool around, oral, and mutual play, he seemed to really be into me and even (this may sound gross) as far as sometimes licking his fingers afterwards and making a huge deal about how much he enjoyed me and my "taste" and all this. Well, we got married August 20th 2011, and didnt have sex on our wedding night, we had sex maybe twice during the week and a half honeymoon. I have a very high sex drive, I always am willing. Since we married there has been a drastic decline, to the point of I dont even remember the last time we had sex. He gets testosterone shots twice a month, but they seem to do nothing. Last night, we were watching a movie and I slipped my breast out and guided his hand to carress me and he got mad, to the point where we actually fought about it. He was saying that he just wanted to watch the movie and I was being rude and I didnt understand....blah blah blah....I feel so ugly, worthless, and I feel like he isnt attracted to me. Like he thought he was when we were dating, then saw what he married and just lost interest. I am not slim, I am a bbw, which he was just fine with. Maybe it is my own insecurities, but I feel like he realized after we got married that he really wasnt into that, and has since lost all desire for me. It hurts me, I am crying just writing this, because I dont know if I am willing to stay in a marriage that there is no physical contact. I love him, and married him "for better or for worse" but I feel like...it isnt fair to me. I have toys, I can get myself off, thats not the issue, the issue is the closeness and affection, I need that. He wont even really cuddle with me anymore, he is either looking at ebay on his phone or puts the dog in between us saying "he is feeling insecure, he needs to be here right now"....its getting really old. What should I do? | |||
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Need advice, not sure what to think...
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