I'm in my twenties and my boyfriend is a lot older than me like over 20 years. We have been seeing each other for like 5 months I have stayed at his most weeks. I've actually known him for years though from a sports club I've always had feelings for him really.
Anyway he he just ended it with me because basically I don't like sex. I just didn't have the urge he said he had tried and tried but that there was still no passion. This is partly due to just my simple lack of urge to have intercourse plus he's had lots of women in the past and despite using protection I was scared of catching an sti. He didn't like condoms anyway I had to insist he wore them. It's been 5 months and we only tried sex 3 times he said he kept going flacid because of the condom.
Other than the sex area area we were fine I did invest in the relationship by driving him about to places (he doesn't drive) and always made sure I paid my fair share in the relationship.. which is only fair.
He said he wanted me to go home this morning so that I wouldn't waste anymore of his time. He also said that I needed to see a doctor as having no sex urge was unnatural for the human species. I suppose I've never had a relationship before him and he has been very patient with me but I just feel like a freak/loser now. I've never had a urge to have intercourse (I've had certain fetishes but I'd never tell anyone about those). I told myself that I would keep trying with him but when he started to initiate sex I would be avoidant, he said I kept turning my head away when he went to kiss me. I don't know what to do now as he has given me so many chances he has wanted to split up in the past but kept changing his mind as I said I would try.
I know that it's my fault as basically I'm not giving him a complete relationship but the breakup will hurt as I've liked him for years. Just wanted advice as I don't know where to go from here if I don't like sex. I'd really like him back but he's lost trust in me now because I've kept saying I'll try but we never get anywhere, as he says nothing comes of it as I naturally avoid it.
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