At first, I only wanted to apologize and yes, hope I could get to work with them again. I got the former but not the latter, so naturally, it highly upset me.
I sent a lot of racist things to Sara, who is my former key worker. For months, I guess I was angry too. I was joking around on Facebook and she was offended by what I said. Well, I had said she (inappropriate word) her Hispanic ass when I am around. Was that racist?
In court, the procurator fiscal said I had sent over 40 messages. Why would Sara or Joanna want to keep a record of all my communication with them? Furthermore, if I said inappropriate things, why did they not say anything or just ignore it? Names are nothing. It now seems they had a hand in hurting me.
All of this year, I have been torn between ditching Autism Initiatives and staying with them. It might be possible for me to live there again at that flat, but I would rather have my helpers back. It would be a healthier and happer option, because if I see them around helping other people and giving me the cold shoulder too, I'll just feel jealous and I really do miss these women, as well as Robert.
I was not good at handling the loss, so I took some cheap shots at them. If I could have done one thing differently, I would have been more polite, but I guess I was nice to begin with and nobody was giving me any attention, so I turned my aggression up a few notches on the mental dial.
I feel hurt and I may not be able to let this matter go. In fact, I am worried this will take over my life. They cannot keep locking me up forever either. The company needs to reinstate Joanna and Sara, plus Robert, who was the man who blabbed about me liking Sara. That way I can prove it was all a misunderstanding.
We all deserve a second chance in life. After all, life only comes around once. They have not been very fair or responsible. And, I have not exactly had an easy life so they by law should cut people like me some slack. Now, I did misbehave, but I could excuse their lying as the reason for acting like a moron.
It is their job to see to it that my life gets a much needed upgrade.
I sent a lot of racist things to Sara, who is my former key worker. For months, I guess I was angry too. I was joking around on Facebook and she was offended by what I said. Well, I had said she (inappropriate word) her Hispanic ass when I am around. Was that racist?
In court, the procurator fiscal said I had sent over 40 messages. Why would Sara or Joanna want to keep a record of all my communication with them? Furthermore, if I said inappropriate things, why did they not say anything or just ignore it? Names are nothing. It now seems they had a hand in hurting me.
All of this year, I have been torn between ditching Autism Initiatives and staying with them. It might be possible for me to live there again at that flat, but I would rather have my helpers back. It would be a healthier and happer option, because if I see them around helping other people and giving me the cold shoulder too, I'll just feel jealous and I really do miss these women, as well as Robert.
I was not good at handling the loss, so I took some cheap shots at them. If I could have done one thing differently, I would have been more polite, but I guess I was nice to begin with and nobody was giving me any attention, so I turned my aggression up a few notches on the mental dial.
I feel hurt and I may not be able to let this matter go. In fact, I am worried this will take over my life. They cannot keep locking me up forever either. The company needs to reinstate Joanna and Sara, plus Robert, who was the man who blabbed about me liking Sara. That way I can prove it was all a misunderstanding.
We all deserve a second chance in life. After all, life only comes around once. They have not been very fair or responsible. And, I have not exactly had an easy life so they by law should cut people like me some slack. Now, I did misbehave, but I could excuse their lying as the reason for acting like a moron.
It is their job to see to it that my life gets a much needed upgrade.
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