I've been with my boyfriend for just over a month. It's got intense pretty fast: at the end of our first date, he changed his relationship status. We've spent at least every other night with each other, and he texts/calls a lot. He's really sweet, he'll do little things to show he's thinking of me.
The thing is, though I felt it at first, I don't feel that 'spark'. Which is gutting, cos he's so nice.
I'm going to uni next year, I'm applying for my home uni but also others quite far away - he's already saying he hopes I get into my home uni because he says how hard it would be otherwise. But I do consider going to a far away uni because I don't want to compromise my choices over a relationship.
We like all of the same things (music, tv shows, humour, etc) but he's been in the same job for years, and doesn't know what he wants to do (he can't progress in the job he's in, it's a dead end job). Like, he doesn't want to do anything. I'm quite ambitious; I want to go to a good university and work on training for my career for the next four or five years. I will probably end up moving away to do this.
I know deep down I'll probably have to break up with him, but it's gonna be so hard. I've never broken up with someone after such a short amount of time. I don't know whether to just try and address the issues I have and try to give it a chance. He's been saying he loves me since, like, four days into the relationship. Argh. Not sure the point of this post tbh, needed to get it off my chest. :(
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