We have been fighting for the past month straight. My fiancé says that his insecurities are caused by me not changing my bad habits.
Some of the many things that are wrong with me are as follows:
I do not know how to communicate
I lose my temper easily
I yell when I am angry
I am not fair or equal with him
For the past month I have been under scrutiny and accused of being a liar over the dumbest little things, of course I get upset because my feelings are hurt. My fiancé thinks I lie about anything and everything.
Honestly, I feel like he has made the changes that I wanted from him for so long but now I feel stuck. As though I don't know where to start and every day is a battle. I cant afford going to a therapist or counselor and pay a dollar a minute for 50 minutes a week. We tried going to counseling earlier this year when he called off our wedding. I went once alone, once with him and another time he sat in the car pissed off at me, again alone.
I understand my anger sometimes is unnecessary. I'm just not sure where to begin the transition and the change. At the end of May we wanted to start trying for a child. Probably a mistake I realize this now, since he called off the wedding 5 months prior. Now he wants me back on birth control and I need to fix myself. I'm the one with all the problems.
Does anyone have any advice to help me keep my temper under control and help me be a better partner in communicating?
Some of the many things that are wrong with me are as follows:
I do not know how to communicate
I lose my temper easily
I yell when I am angry
I am not fair or equal with him
For the past month I have been under scrutiny and accused of being a liar over the dumbest little things, of course I get upset because my feelings are hurt. My fiancé thinks I lie about anything and everything.
Honestly, I feel like he has made the changes that I wanted from him for so long but now I feel stuck. As though I don't know where to start and every day is a battle. I cant afford going to a therapist or counselor and pay a dollar a minute for 50 minutes a week. We tried going to counseling earlier this year when he called off our wedding. I went once alone, once with him and another time he sat in the car pissed off at me, again alone.
I understand my anger sometimes is unnecessary. I'm just not sure where to begin the transition and the change. At the end of May we wanted to start trying for a child. Probably a mistake I realize this now, since he called off the wedding 5 months prior. Now he wants me back on birth control and I need to fix myself. I'm the one with all the problems.
Does anyone have any advice to help me keep my temper under control and help me be a better partner in communicating?
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