In short, fell in love with female best friend. 3 years on, still have feelings for her. And think she might feel the same.
3 years ago, I met this girl and soon we became best friends (we are both girls). I became very attached to her very quickly and fell for her pretty hard. 2 years ago, I confessed to her that I had feelings for her when I thought I had a window of opportunity. Little did I know, she had started seeing someone else. She quickly told me that, and also mentioned that sometime she gets confused and felt the same about me. Since then, we haven't poached the subject again.
After my confession, I continually felt terrible for being so in love with her and not having the feeling reciprocated. When she left the country for a job, I thought 'Great, I can finally move on'. I tried to disappear from her radar. But she literally crawled her way back. When I started to become less responsive to her (using work as an excuse), she literally used every means of communications (e-mail, phone call, facebook) to track me down. I am grateful for that and happy we are still in touch.
Earlier this year, I thought I was ready to move on and started a relationship, which lasted for 6 months. Now, I still think of her every, single, day. And, I hate that. Even when I was in a relationship, there were occasions when part of me still thinks and misses her, which made me feel really guilty.
Over the last couple of months, my friend has been incredibly cryptic when we got a chance to catch up.
First, after I had posted a status on Facebook in French saying 'I miss you, every second of every minute of every day', she responded by saying 'Come to visit me in Prague'. A few days after that post, she sent me a whatsapp message to see what I was up to, and told me she was planning to come back to London in March next year and asked me to 'wait for her'.
Second, she was asking me how I was after my break up, and I was telling her about the problems that I had with my failed relationship. And she said she had similar problems, and that 'We have some problems that cannot be solved'. She mentioned the last part several times before when we had Skype conversations, but it was very clear that she did not want to discuss it. Anyway, when I ended the conversation, she said something that baffled me. She said 'Don't forget me'.
Thirdly, it's really not her thing to remember people's birthdays. But this year, she posted me a present from Prague, and called me on my mobile to wish me a Happy Birthday.
I don't know if I am reading too much into all these. Any opinions? If I am being delusional, tell me.
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