I was married for 15 years...have two kids, live in the formal marital home....had them full time now 50%
ex lives in same town....see her almost every day and text and or talk all the time....generally about the kids....trying to do everything for them so things feel as normal as possible.
truth is, i love my ex bit have since realized she isnt for me and am better off....she can be plesant to be around and other times her high level of anxiety and paniced/extreme persona has literally driven me insane...she has very little boundaries and most of that is bc i think she felt as tho it was her house and weve discussed it plenty. anyway, we run things like they used to be for the girls..
i just ended a 14 month relationship that i stayed in too long...after a lot of online dating and nothing appealing, i ended up with a person i had a lot of fun with, great sex, and did many fun activities....she was apart from her ex as long as me but the divorce wasnt final....she harbored too much resentment towards her ex and was a horrible communicator...bottomline, our good times weregreat and bad were too bad ....she has 3 girls and i got to know them and her parents, friends, etc
I miss her and the entire package...i know she isnt right for me but loved her....isnt that weird? I find the sudden ending difficult and it sent me back into a dark place full of negative reflection....i went to therapy for a year after my marriage and tried multiple therapists before landing on the right one..i am a very open and honest guy, have many friends and family members that know exactly how i am feeling...both good and bad....i talk things out like crazy.....
well, in addition....i went from earning a great living to about 1/2 of what i use to and lost my ex wife;s income and am still in the expensive house. now house poor and staying for my kids...they dont know any other house and love the neighborhood....
all of this stress has me in the dumps and i am going to a highly recommended pyschiatrist to deal with anxiety from my ex, the loss of my gf, the financial stress, and ive lost all motivation to work out as i always have....life sucks....
ive been on various Anti depr and even extended release versions of xanax and cant get an erection without ed drugs at 43! i realize i am no longer in a relationship but im a mess..
selling the house is not an immediate option....i have a lot of equity (luckily) and will refi
the nerves and butterflies in my stomach ALL day long and moments of heavy despair are killing me inside
any ideas?
please help...:scratchhead:
ex lives in same town....see her almost every day and text and or talk all the time....generally about the kids....trying to do everything for them so things feel as normal as possible.
truth is, i love my ex bit have since realized she isnt for me and am better off....she can be plesant to be around and other times her high level of anxiety and paniced/extreme persona has literally driven me insane...she has very little boundaries and most of that is bc i think she felt as tho it was her house and weve discussed it plenty. anyway, we run things like they used to be for the girls..
i just ended a 14 month relationship that i stayed in too long...after a lot of online dating and nothing appealing, i ended up with a person i had a lot of fun with, great sex, and did many fun activities....she was apart from her ex as long as me but the divorce wasnt final....she harbored too much resentment towards her ex and was a horrible communicator...bottomline, our good times weregreat and bad were too bad ....she has 3 girls and i got to know them and her parents, friends, etc
I miss her and the entire package...i know she isnt right for me but loved her....isnt that weird? I find the sudden ending difficult and it sent me back into a dark place full of negative reflection....i went to therapy for a year after my marriage and tried multiple therapists before landing on the right one..i am a very open and honest guy, have many friends and family members that know exactly how i am feeling...both good and bad....i talk things out like crazy.....
well, in addition....i went from earning a great living to about 1/2 of what i use to and lost my ex wife;s income and am still in the expensive house. now house poor and staying for my kids...they dont know any other house and love the neighborhood....
all of this stress has me in the dumps and i am going to a highly recommended pyschiatrist to deal with anxiety from my ex, the loss of my gf, the financial stress, and ive lost all motivation to work out as i always have....life sucks....
ive been on various Anti depr and even extended release versions of xanax and cant get an erection without ed drugs at 43! i realize i am no longer in a relationship but im a mess..
selling the house is not an immediate option....i have a lot of equity (luckily) and will refi
the nerves and butterflies in my stomach ALL day long and moments of heavy despair are killing me inside
any ideas?
please help...:scratchhead:
Put the internet to work for you.
No comments:
Post a Comment