Basically I am suspected of having Paranoid Schizophrenia. Nothing extreme like telling me to shank people or anything, more hearing voices (thinking they're people behind me etc) criticizing me, my appearance or similar thing when I get stressed.
After 2 years of being passed pillar to post I have still not had a full diagnosis.... however that's the UK mental health system for you.
Either way it's manageable and rarely kicks up. Basically 2 years ago I broke up with my ex, moved back home with the parents, got promoted in a high stress job and then decided to go you uni. Due to the stress it flared up until around a year ago.
Around the same time of going to uni, met a girl. Was all fine how got paranoid on nights out about her getting chatted up, so was a bit twatty until we had a sit down (after 6 months) and agreed to talk about it. Agreed to talk about every-time she felt I was being paranoid etc.
We were due on going on holiday in 3 weeks for her birthday, another holiday with the parents in two months time and going to a wedding together as well. I'm Back home from uni, she came up to visit today, had a meal with my parents, come home and BAM! she says she feels fine when we're together alone, or separate, but cannot trust me to be around her friends in case I feel paranoid and as such decided to end it.
I feel heart broken. Since we had the chat I talked to her instantly when I've had such things (only had two instances in the last year involving feeling paranoid about her), but she said that's why she does not like me being out with her and her friends.
I feel like for the last year she's lied to me and does not trust me even though I've done everything to address the issue. She say's she just can't cope any more, when she's really had to cope with very little in the last year seeing there's only been two instances.
It's ruined all my plans for the summer and I feel broken due to the fact I thought I finally found an understanding person who wouldn't jump to conclusion seeing how most people view such mental disorders :(
I'm just devastated and really do not know what to do :/
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