Until I was nearly 20, I never wanted a girlfriend. During the first term of first year, I befriended a girl on my course and, before the term ended, we were kind of a couple - the only problem is that she didn't want to let go of her ex. Basically, she was using me the whole time. Within two months of "being together", she went back to her ex (whom goes to the same university as the both of us). I don't consider her an "ex" because during the entirety of the "relationship" she was still with him the whole time. I was very naive at the time, and I didn't completely recognise her intentions until I was forced to give her an ultimatum - this lead to our "breakup".
Fast forward nearly three years later, I still haven't found a girlfriend or, even, went on a proper date with any girl. A lot of people have called me attractive, I am good at talking to girls, I work out, I dress very well, I can be funny when I want to be, and I consider myself to be very intelligent.
My biggest problems is that I don't have a car, my family are extremely poor, my family has no family friends, and I hardly get the opportunity to go out. Everyone, at my university, has much more positive life experiences - I have never been abroad in my life, for example. Before I was 19, my mum and I had moved houses 18 times.
I want a companion but I have been having little to no luck at all. Whenever things seem to be going well between me and a girl, I find out that she has a boyfriend, or that she is already seeing someone. There are so many girls that I could have dated had they been single at the time we met. I feel very lonely (and, trust me, I have been trying my best to defeat that feeling). Since I was 11, my mum would tell me that her friends/colleagues would always tell her that I will get a lot of girls later on in life (just because of my looks). It's kind of ironic that, 11 years later, that has far from been the case with me. I don't even even feel like a man anymore, to be completely honest.
Any advice?
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