So..
I let a friend feel my up on the way home last week, and like they are quite close to me. But we were just talking, a little bit dirty admittedly, then, without pressuring me or anything, I let them "cup a feel", a very awkward under the bra feel. It didn't necessarily feel wrong at the time, more "in the moment", and a "feel" was also reciprocated.
Quite PG, like Angus Thongs style because I have little to no experience.
We had a laugh after and walked home, but now I'm feeling a little weird about it. They've being really nice about it, they're not the problem. It's just that now, I feel kind of weird.
Like I wont do it again, it was a mistake, but a small mistake I'm glad I made with them, because I trust them, instead of a big mistake with a stranger.
I feel like a kind of harlot but I know I'm not, but I cant help but be a little disappointed with myself. I was what I wanted at the time, I just don't know if I'm allowed to change my mind
I just guess, I need some kind of clarification on this all. I would like to be in a relationship, not necessarily with them, but god knows some time soon. But after that I feel like, even though I feel ready to have sex, I'm not quite ready to lose my virginity- if that makes sense at all.
any help/advice
would be appreciated
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