I'm 22 and she was my first girlfriend. It's been over a year since me and my ex broke up and before I struggled but with time and the fact that I've now left uni and we're at different ends of the country, I am "getting over" her. I put it in inverted commas as I don't know if its more just forgetting everything as I still feel weird inside when I hear her name or see something related to her on Facebook, etc.
Any way, recently I have been really bored as I was seeing another girl and ended things with her and I have been tempted to start something back up but I know it won't be for the right reasons. Due to this boredom, I have been getting tempted to text my ex and see what happens.
To make things worse, I recently got a phone call from my mum. She told me about how one of my aunts seems to have found a potential girl for me to get married to and even though my mum said it was silly, I think my mum still thinks we should keep an open mind incase the girl is a good girl. This panicked me a bit and I got even more tempted to text my ex as I know she is a girl I got on well with.
I try and keep myself busy, I work 8.30 - 5, go to the gym in the evenings, play football and bought a PS4 to keep myself occupied. I even try and do things with mates as much as possible, but there are still times which remind me of her and how I liked it when she was there. This is really annoying me as I keep wanting to start smoking and stuff again.
There's a few problems though:
- I will have to get into a long distance relationship, with an ex. Chances are, that's not very likely and I don't know how I'll feel after.
- It's been ages since we've spoken, again, what if she has someone else and I don't know how I'll feel.
I think the main negatives are me being scared I'll get rejected. It was weird though how she liked a picture of me on Facebook recently, even though she didn't wish me happy birthday or anything.
I really don't know what to do. Can someone give me some help or advice please?
Thanks
Any way, recently I have been really bored as I was seeing another girl and ended things with her and I have been tempted to start something back up but I know it won't be for the right reasons. Due to this boredom, I have been getting tempted to text my ex and see what happens.
To make things worse, I recently got a phone call from my mum. She told me about how one of my aunts seems to have found a potential girl for me to get married to and even though my mum said it was silly, I think my mum still thinks we should keep an open mind incase the girl is a good girl. This panicked me a bit and I got even more tempted to text my ex as I know she is a girl I got on well with.
I try and keep myself busy, I work 8.30 - 5, go to the gym in the evenings, play football and bought a PS4 to keep myself occupied. I even try and do things with mates as much as possible, but there are still times which remind me of her and how I liked it when she was there. This is really annoying me as I keep wanting to start smoking and stuff again.
There's a few problems though:
- I will have to get into a long distance relationship, with an ex. Chances are, that's not very likely and I don't know how I'll feel after.
- It's been ages since we've spoken, again, what if she has someone else and I don't know how I'll feel.
I think the main negatives are me being scared I'll get rejected. It was weird though how she liked a picture of me on Facebook recently, even though she didn't wish me happy birthday or anything.
I really don't know what to do. Can someone give me some help or advice please?
Thanks
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