| Here I sit at 4 a.m. while on family vacation after staying inside our camper all day, crying, thinking, anything to stay out of his path so as not to create more tension. He is not physically abusive, I will state that strongly. I am not perfect, no one is. His family knows he has anger and temper issues. I love this man because he is my protector, a strong willed person, I believe him to be loyal after some past issues, and we seemed to have a bond no one could shatter. Lately the temper and attitude outbursts are more frequent and in front of anyone. My 71 year old Mom is with us as well as my Sons best friend. It is embarrassing and so hurtful. We had a bad first day here with some reservation issues and everyone was frustrated, but now things are ok but every word I say or thing I do gets a snippy comment, a roll of the eyes, a slammed door or an all out argument. I chose to just keep out of sight today hoping it would help. No such luck. Talking gets us nowhere, I say something honestly and he gets more upset. This is just the tip of the iceberg, one incident out of hundreds. I am to the point I do not want to go anywhere with him. None of us do. He has no tolerance or patience, and has an answer for anything I try to talk about. Just a simple trip to the store always goes bad, I am ready to throw the towel in on this vacation and go home. I honestly would rather be at work at this point. Thanks for taking the time to read. I am just so worn out and I do not know what to do. |
No comments:
Post a Comment