I think I am becoming a slut and I don't like it

maybe slut is a bit strong but the situation is as follows: i am a virgin because i never liked the idea of having sex with someone i didn't feel strongly about and that feeling just never happened to me. i rejected guys who just wanted sex etc. and only ever got as far as kissing guys i liked but then always found something to put me off them. even if i was drunk i didn't kiss random guys. the past 2 months or maybe 3 i have kissed like 5 different people and gone a lot further than that with 2 of them though we didn't actually have sex, but i was very close to it with one of them. i know it might not sound a lot but it's a big difference to how i was before. i don't know what happened. i didn't regret any of it until last night where i kissed a guy i had been talking to (and leading on) for ages... or he kissed me and i went along with it (of course, i was drunk) then stopped him. he was very good looking but you have no idea how much i regret it because i was not attracted to him. i dont even know his name. the guy i came closest to sex with i would definitely have sex with no regrets... even if it were casual. i do not think he is interested though. but i don't want to become the kind of girls who does stuff with a load of people and then regrets it. it really hit home after i regretted what happened last night. i am 19. i don't mind the fact i have changed but i don't know why i have. i guess i just want some reassurance. i don't want a reputation.

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