180

I've read a lot of information regarding the "180" plan and I've figured that today will be my DDay. My wife has been gone since Friday and I have acted completely unavailable and short with my conversation. She senses that something is different and is saying that I'm actin like someone who wants to leave. I feel like I'm doing a good job but now I'm starting too feel like I'm being an a-hole...in a way it feels good. I already planned to be gone when she gets home at the movies. I feel like when I get back shell be gone and have the door locked to the house so my plan B is to have a bag packed and stay in a hotel overnight. I want the 180 mainly for me. It would be nice for her to say sorry and do the groveling but I would find it to be fake and pathetic. So I just want my life and happiness backand. Tomorrow I'm going back to ny therapist to figure out why I keep getting in abusive relationships and try ny hardest to stick with this transformation. I fear that her anger and words will make me be the sucker I have been and she knows I really have no where to go. Anyone have any words of advice or guidance as to How to keep your poker face during this time would be great. Posted via Mobile Device

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