Was it rape? or loosing my virginity?

First of all thank you for reading. Im a 19 year old gay guy and about to turn 20 in a month. I met this guy online six month ago and he is 31. A great caring guy but afraid of relationships, any way. we met in person last night, and I was willingly wearing some stuff that i knew he would like and shaved everything,(totally manipulating) but I knew that I don't want to loose my virginity. he asked why and i told him that since "I see a future for us, I want our first time to be sometime and somewhere nice!" he agreed. and we just made out and oral stuff. we slept next to each other till this morning, we were both naked. I started kissing everywhere!litterlyy everywhere , then He woke up and became like a lion and he entered my backdoor! But it was like just once, It went in and came out (not completly actually)I was Saying stop stop and he did. we both didnt come. and I feel a little disrespected but on the other hand I KNOW that I had maniputlating behavior. I just don't know how to feel! I'm not looking for somebody to just blame. Its ok. but Im a little sad and I feel bad. Please help!

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