So I talked to my husband today and told him I wantedto know WHY he has done the things he does to me but would never think of doing those things to others. The short version is this. He has physically, emotionally, and sexually abused me as well as allowing others to either sexually assault or outright ra*e me.
Two weeks ago we had a fight and the cops told him to leave for just the night but I told him I don't want him back here and so far he has honored that and has only come to pick up personal items with a police escort and has been here three times on his own to do other things.
His answer was that this is bigger than any of us to understand and that he could only suggest meditation and prayer. But he says he was not using that as an excuse.
Are you freaking kidding me? I'm supposed to meditate or pray because of the nightmares and flashbacks that were a result of HIS actions? Not even an apology. Then he tells me I need to let go of the past and move forward so we can "fix" this. As if it were something broken that can be glued back together....
IDKY but that inferioritied me. He has caused so much trauma and heartache. He has stolen my dignity and my happiness to live and he says meditation or prayer and no apology. I just want to curl up and disappear. I have tried getting help for over two years now and ppl literally don't believe me or tell me it can't be that bad. I told mandated reporters and went to the police. I've had the police here and they treated me as if I were in the wrong.
I admitted to pushing at him and kicking at him to defend myself and get away from him in self defense and one cop literally told me that next time I shouldnt "fight back" call 911 as soon as I can get to a phone. Then later as the other officer left and I had called a friend for help, he literally told me to enjoy my night alone with my friends and have a few drinks with them and have fun.
I had bruises, cuts, and scrapes. I was shaking and crying and those were not only words I didn't want to hear but inappropriate. I always thought the police were here to protect. If he comes near me again, I'm calling the Sheriff's Dept. I have lost all faith and trust in my local police.
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Two weeks ago we had a fight and the cops told him to leave for just the night but I told him I don't want him back here and so far he has honored that and has only come to pick up personal items with a police escort and has been here three times on his own to do other things.
His answer was that this is bigger than any of us to understand and that he could only suggest meditation and prayer. But he says he was not using that as an excuse.
Are you freaking kidding me? I'm supposed to meditate or pray because of the nightmares and flashbacks that were a result of HIS actions? Not even an apology. Then he tells me I need to let go of the past and move forward so we can "fix" this. As if it were something broken that can be glued back together....
IDKY but that inferioritied me. He has caused so much trauma and heartache. He has stolen my dignity and my happiness to live and he says meditation or prayer and no apology. I just want to curl up and disappear. I have tried getting help for over two years now and ppl literally don't believe me or tell me it can't be that bad. I told mandated reporters and went to the police. I've had the police here and they treated me as if I were in the wrong.
I admitted to pushing at him and kicking at him to defend myself and get away from him in self defense and one cop literally told me that next time I shouldnt "fight back" call 911 as soon as I can get to a phone. Then later as the other officer left and I had called a friend for help, he literally told me to enjoy my night alone with my friends and have a few drinks with them and have fun.
I had bruises, cuts, and scrapes. I was shaking and crying and those were not only words I didn't want to hear but inappropriate. I always thought the police were here to protect. If he comes near me again, I'm calling the Sheriff's Dept. I have lost all faith and trust in my local police.
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