Dependency on Ultram

I had a problem with a drug called Ultram. It ran my life for about five years. I was wounded by an IED in 2005 Al-Anbar, Iraq and for pain, I received a prescription for Ultram in January of 2009. I had taken my first Lortab in August of 2008 and what a rush that was. At first Ultram was a miracle drug. I was pain free AND depression free. It acted on some receptors that just made me, "happy." I was on it about a year and a half when one day, I decided enough was enough. I didn't take my dose that morning and by 12 that day, I was in the bed. To make a long story shorter, I withdrew for a week: no sleep; no cognitive skills; no energy; no life. I stayed clean for two months and fell back into the trap. I did the on/off thing for the next 3.5 years. Each time I quit, I had mini withdrawals of about four or five days... I never got well. I'd always go back after a week. Finally, with Divine Intervention, the need and want for Ultram was removed. That was D ecember 23rd, 2013. I STILL have days where I feel blah. (PAWS) I never got carried away with the amount of pills. I've read where some people would take 90 a day, not that it makes me a "better" person than them.


Things that would help me and still helps me:

I've replaced the need for drugs with the need for exercise. I lift/run five to six days a week. If I am going to have a "thing," it may as well be exercise. I don't exercise for more than an hour when I do, though.

I am daily reminded when I look at my children and wife why the need to remain sober exists. They deserve better.

I am in prayer daily that God will continue to allow me to abstain from it. I've had many opportunities to indulge but felt no inclination to do so. To me there's only one explanation and that's God.

All within a three month period, I quit cussing, taking Ultram, and abstaining from porn.


I used to watch Intervention and convince myself that I was NOT like them. The joke was on me.

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