So I've been in a new relationship for about six weeks. We started off as friends, then casual sex, then dating. Then he asked me to be his girlfriend. I was so caught up in the moment that I said yes
I do have genuinely strong feelings for him, though I'm not sure exactly what those feelings are. I don't think its love, at least not in the romantic sense. But i care deeply for him, and feel horrendously guilty for these bad thoughts.
The six weeks has been great, on the most part, though now I'm doubting everything. Thinking about it, I'm not sure I want a relationship just now. They're so taxing and I'm only twenty. We've fallen out a few times since the relationship began, and I've found myself resenting him on occasion. To make matters worse, I keep comparing my feelings for him to those I had for someone else last year- I was in love with the other person, but it wasn't meant to be. My relationship doesn't feel like that, not as deep. We feel more like close friends who sleep together but something-the love part- is missing.
He's a fantastic guy and I don't want to hurt him. I know I need to be honest and this whole thing feels like a terrible mistake. Really don't want to lose him as a friend but I think that might happen if I tell him the truth
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