My 22 anniversary was this past Sat. I received flowers. Surprising, after my husband had told me Dec 12 and New Years Eve that he was moving out. He still hasn't moved out to this day. Still wears his wedding ring. Has not told any one but me this feeling of growing apart, which he decided himself sitting on the sofa for the last year having a chivas or 4 every night. Yes we have had big issues, an affair 7 years ago he had with an employee. He got fired from his job. We were determined to make it work, especially for our 2 small children. And we did succeed with them as they are in a much better place today. 14 and 17. Now I get the "we have grown apart" which it is true we didn't spend much time working on us. We both turned 50 last fall. My husband has taken it harder than I with the thinking life is short, we are on the downhill. He drinks every night. We go out, have good times and he still tells me he's thinking of moving out. Waiting for a good time. Is unsure if he should get an apartment or townhouse, how many bedrooms. Really???? The emotional roller coaster I'm on is cruel and unfair. There has been no intimacy in a long time, hugs, kisses, even still to this day! I have strong moments, have told him is cruel and to go!! I get down as I am very emotionally invested after 22 years of history and moving every 3 years to move him up the career ladder. This isn't healthy I know. Has to end somehow. Confused. . . .
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