What is the point of marriage i feel worse than ever. I am a yo yo a freaking toy he keeps playing with me. He acts like a good cop then a bad one it is driving me nuts. One moment everything is going nice and I see him as my soulmate then it gets so bad we end up hating each other. I want to run away & be alone cause I DO NOT trust anyone. No one to turn to no one to talk to! I can't GET a job so I have No job & I want one sooo desperately! My heart wants a baby so bad but logically it is stupid to have one in my position especially when he doesn't want kids but we both know he would have a kid with the first chick he gets with as soon as I leave this marriage. Says he loves me & married me but doesn't know if he wants to be together for ever he has no plans for the future. He says he doesn't know if he wants to be with other women then he takes that back & gets mad at me. he turns every thing into him cause the world revolves around him NO JOKE he actua lly believes this. He is a good guy probably the best I would ever find but he is also so horrible. Don't have family to turn to they are awful there is a reason i ran away from home as a teen. No friends & no where to go. I am codependent with health problems to make my situation even more annoying. I want to leave as soon as i get the money together i keep telling myself. He hasn't cheated on me he uses that to make himself seam so great...guess what i haven't cheated on him either do i get a trophy no cause it isn't a big deal for women not to cheat according to him. I'm broken... he was the only guy i have been with my whole life but im done that was enough for me.
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