15 years ago I had to break up with a man I really loved and he truly loved me back. My parents didnt approve of the relationship the entire time I dated this guy because of our educational backgrounds.
I later met my then husband who I have been with for some time... We have had all sorts of drama. Him lying about finances, porn addiction and sexual rejection although he is a good father. So naturally at these bad times.. My mind drifts and always wonder would I have had the same issues had i married my ex.. Because i just feel in a loving relationship.. I shouldnt hv had to deal with all those issues.
My ex never had closure on the relationship. I just told him it was over because i couldnt bring myself to say my parents told me to dump him. So recently I made contact on facebook with him and got his number. When we did chat the one time, He told me he has since married and has children but he admitted he is still in love with me and that he never had closure on the relationship so i explained why i broke things off with him and that was that. He also said I was his soulmate and that his mother thought I brought out the best in him.
I have refrained from keeping in touch with him as I dont want to inteferfere in his new marriage plus it will be disrepectful to my husband but I think about him often. I fantasize about him. I can get him on facebook, have his phone number but i really refrain from any contact since the one chat we had. I am just failing to get over him maybe because we didnt break up on my terms? Am I forever going to wonder what if.. ?
How do u move on when things ended like this?
Has anyone married their soulmate and had a relatively smooth marriage with manageable problems.
I also regret that my husband was the first man I slept with. My ex and I had amazing chemistry for the whole 6 years we were together but because he knew my parents hated him we never attempted to go that far in case something went wrong and i fell pregnant as a result.
I later met my then husband who I have been with for some time... We have had all sorts of drama. Him lying about finances, porn addiction and sexual rejection although he is a good father. So naturally at these bad times.. My mind drifts and always wonder would I have had the same issues had i married my ex.. Because i just feel in a loving relationship.. I shouldnt hv had to deal with all those issues.
My ex never had closure on the relationship. I just told him it was over because i couldnt bring myself to say my parents told me to dump him. So recently I made contact on facebook with him and got his number. When we did chat the one time, He told me he has since married and has children but he admitted he is still in love with me and that he never had closure on the relationship so i explained why i broke things off with him and that was that. He also said I was his soulmate and that his mother thought I brought out the best in him.
I have refrained from keeping in touch with him as I dont want to inteferfere in his new marriage plus it will be disrepectful to my husband but I think about him often. I fantasize about him. I can get him on facebook, have his phone number but i really refrain from any contact since the one chat we had. I am just failing to get over him maybe because we didnt break up on my terms? Am I forever going to wonder what if.. ?
How do u move on when things ended like this?
Has anyone married their soulmate and had a relatively smooth marriage with manageable problems.
I also regret that my husband was the first man I slept with. My ex and I had amazing chemistry for the whole 6 years we were together but because he knew my parents hated him we never attempted to go that far in case something went wrong and i fell pregnant as a result.
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