My girlfriend of 3 1/2 years recently broke up with me. Our relationship hasn't been perfect; she's suffered from severe depression and I've at times struggled to cope, but we managed and on the whole the good times outweighed the bad. We go to the same school so I see her most days (whether that's a good or bad thing), and we have also decided that we want to be friends, because we have gone through so much together.
She was my first long-term relationship and obviously I have grown extremely attached to her... and left behind many friends in the process. Me and my girlfriend were literally best friends so I just did everything with her (obviously I now realise this was a mistake as now I have no support network). So I don't just want to cut her out of my life because she means so much to me, and I know she loves me like I'm family.
Now she has broken up with me (and has a new girlfriend may I add) I am really struggling with life. I would always go to her with my problems, but now I can't because she is the cause of them. My parents do not accept my sexuality so I cannot talk to them, and like I said I have grown apart from many of my friends over the last few years as I've spent so much time with my girlfriend. I feel so alone, I'm breaking down daily (although the breakup was over 2 weeks ago), I can't focus on my studies at all and I'm cutting again in an attempt to get some control back. Everyday I just look forward to sleeping so I don't have to be conscious. I know it's pathetic and childish but I really did see myself being with her for a long time and now she's gone all my future plans have just kind of dissolved.
How can I get my head space sorted when I have to see her and her new girlfriend every day at school? How can I move on?
She was my first long-term relationship and obviously I have grown extremely attached to her... and left behind many friends in the process. Me and my girlfriend were literally best friends so I just did everything with her (obviously I now realise this was a mistake as now I have no support network). So I don't just want to cut her out of my life because she means so much to me, and I know she loves me like I'm family.
Now she has broken up with me (and has a new girlfriend may I add) I am really struggling with life. I would always go to her with my problems, but now I can't because she is the cause of them. My parents do not accept my sexuality so I cannot talk to them, and like I said I have grown apart from many of my friends over the last few years as I've spent so much time with my girlfriend. I feel so alone, I'm breaking down daily (although the breakup was over 2 weeks ago), I can't focus on my studies at all and I'm cutting again in an attempt to get some control back. Everyday I just look forward to sleeping so I don't have to be conscious. I know it's pathetic and childish but I really did see myself being with her for a long time and now she's gone all my future plans have just kind of dissolved.
How can I get my head space sorted when I have to see her and her new girlfriend every day at school? How can I move on?
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