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So the above link is my original post. I went to an attorney recommended to me by an attorney I am working with regarding a separate issue.
Im so tired, I feel bad. I feel guilty, and no matter how much I try to justify it the guilt doesn't go away.
I love him, but the manipulation, lies, and ommissions are too much. One day we are okay, something explosive happens, and the next day I am supposed to pretend it didn't happen. The toll that takes on me is mentally excruciating and yet I still feel guilty. I know I am no angel. It takes two to fight. But dammit I really tried. I bent over backwards to make him feel what he needed to feel. like a man in control. ALL TO ME DETRIMENT because I totally screwed myself into a cave that I am afraid I will never get out of.
My attorney walked me through the whole process, and of course much of it was tidbits of info for each situation, we have to wait until we actually reach the bridge before we can cross it kinda thing. All our money is tied into HIS accounts that I have no legal access to. wife or not. Im not on the account so I cant touch it without the courts. and I cant pay the courts because I don't have access to what is half mine.
Ive been back in school and I am almost done with a course I need just to apply to my program. I am really scared I wont get in, and even if I do, I have to face reality, If I am working and going to school he can and will (just to spite me) ask for full custody, which according to my lawyer he can win without much issue. So there are other ways I can do this without him having to even get involved in it.
I am a stay at home mom, by the way with two little ones.,
So the above link is my original post. I went to an attorney recommended to me by an attorney I am working with regarding a separate issue.
Im so tired, I feel bad. I feel guilty, and no matter how much I try to justify it the guilt doesn't go away.
I love him, but the manipulation, lies, and ommissions are too much. One day we are okay, something explosive happens, and the next day I am supposed to pretend it didn't happen. The toll that takes on me is mentally excruciating and yet I still feel guilty. I know I am no angel. It takes two to fight. But dammit I really tried. I bent over backwards to make him feel what he needed to feel. like a man in control. ALL TO ME DETRIMENT because I totally screwed myself into a cave that I am afraid I will never get out of.
My attorney walked me through the whole process, and of course much of it was tidbits of info for each situation, we have to wait until we actually reach the bridge before we can cross it kinda thing. All our money is tied into HIS accounts that I have no legal access to. wife or not. Im not on the account so I cant touch it without the courts. and I cant pay the courts because I don't have access to what is half mine.
Ive been back in school and I am almost done with a course I need just to apply to my program. I am really scared I wont get in, and even if I do, I have to face reality, If I am working and going to school he can and will (just to spite me) ask for full custody, which according to my lawyer he can win without much issue. So there are other ways I can do this without him having to even get involved in it.
I am a stay at home mom, by the way with two little ones.,
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