My boyfriend has been with a hell of a lot of girls hes had lots of one night stands and friends with benefits right up to when we got together. He had one inbetween meeting me and then us actually dating. He is most the wonderful loving guy but I just cant get over his past. I was a virgin when we got together and granted he was amazing as he waited months till I was ready to loose it to him.
But I just feel like id never live up to these girls who hes been with I constantly fear im not good enough or pretty enough or they were better than me or he thinks of them when hes sleeping with me. I know im being paranoid but cant help how I feel. I feel even more upset about them because stupidly when we first slept together me being the stupid idiotic naïve virgin I was assumed unprotected sex was only if the whole act of sex was completed without protection (very stupid I know now) so as a result I ended up catching chlamydia from him due to his previous partners. All my friends told me to dump him because of it and his past (although it was my fault for not getting him checked) even my doctor said I should consider what sort of person he is,
However im in love with him I love him to bits and can see myself with him long term. Im just wondering is it bad ive only ever been with him and most likely will ever have been with him. I don't want to sleep with anybody else but feel that if maybe I had slept around like him his past wouldn't bother or upset me so much ?
But I just feel like id never live up to these girls who hes been with I constantly fear im not good enough or pretty enough or they were better than me or he thinks of them when hes sleeping with me. I know im being paranoid but cant help how I feel. I feel even more upset about them because stupidly when we first slept together me being the stupid idiotic naïve virgin I was assumed unprotected sex was only if the whole act of sex was completed without protection (very stupid I know now) so as a result I ended up catching chlamydia from him due to his previous partners. All my friends told me to dump him because of it and his past (although it was my fault for not getting him checked) even my doctor said I should consider what sort of person he is,
However im in love with him I love him to bits and can see myself with him long term. Im just wondering is it bad ive only ever been with him and most likely will ever have been with him. I don't want to sleep with anybody else but feel that if maybe I had slept around like him his past wouldn't bother or upset me so much ?
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