My over persistence to get vibrators into the bedroom

I have been married for 16 years and we have a very nice marriage. We have sex about once a week. I have always felt my wife is a bit old fashioned when it comes to bedroom experiments. I am HD and she is a LD for sure, but she pretty much has almost always agreed to quickies anytime I want or at minimum a handjob or footjob (she has amazing feet, should have been a foot model. Plus I love feet. Its a great bonus because I don't bug her about BJs) Anyways though, there has been at least 3 or 4 times I have tried to bring something extra into the bedroom. I have bough g-spot dildos, small vibrators, and other things. She absolutely hates dildos inside her, because she says they just never feel like the real thing. They are so "mechanical". I did stuff a vibrator inside her and she said she didn't like it the last time we tried one. It was not super-powered but it did vibrate. She always says that she prefers my penis to anything else. And she loves it when I use my finger inside her with the "come here" motion. I can give her many multiple orgasms when I do this. So why do I have this need to constantly slide something in and out of her? I just want to see her get off while I watch or something. But she says she just does not masturbate and has never masturbated ever, since we married, all 16 years, not once. Maybe I watch so much porn that I have started to fantasize about her getting nailed by a guy. I know this sounds sick but I have to be totally honest. I have taken some photos of her face that we have on the computer and Photoshopped her face on porn pics of women getting screwed. I have gotten quite good at this, and masturbating to this is a big turn on. It is almost like the jealousy is a turn on. Obviously she would never go for a threesome, that would almost devastate her if I ever asked it. But again these feelings are there, I want to see her get off from a distance, whether it be watching her masturbate, photoshopping her face to porn or watching a guy bang her. I just recently purchased a Hitachi Magic Wand. She actually agreed to it because we have some aches and pains but she is no dummy. I mentioned we can give each other massages in the bedroom with it and she said yes. So I am planning on a nice evening with a candlelight, soft music, red wine, and I will give her a full body massage and maybe, just maybe, the magic wand will slowly get close to her clit. What do I do? Has my porn addiction (and yes, it is an addiction. Two hours a night, every night, while she is at work) screwed things up?

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