| My marriage has had its ups and downs over the past ten years. I posted here a month ago (but then felt weird about it so deleted it). Things were really bad between me and my husband -- poor communication, resentment, anger, very little sex, disagreements over parenting, etc, etc. After posting here, my husband and I had a breakthrough. After years of trying to get him to understand, he finally heard me. My husband apologized for past wrongs, told me how important I am to him, and is trying so hard to be a better man. I am also working on things and have stopped yelling and nagging and living in the moment more often rather than focusing on the past. The problem? I just am not feeling it. I want to feel it. I want to love this man, but I just don't. For the past few years, my husband told me nothing was wrong, that I was just being crazy. He told me that he would never change and I would "have to decide what to do." After hearing that so many tim es, I think I just gave up and shut down. Now this man is saying things and doing things that I have waited years for. Why isn't my heart responding? I still keep feeling like he is just not "the one." I keep feeling like maybe he is just not my "soul mate." I don't believe in fairy tales and don't want perfection, but I just don't know how to feel the love again. |
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