| GF was out with her friends last night. They came to see me for a drink then moved on to the next bar,her friend came up for a kiss so I gave her a quick 1 on the cheek, then my gf gave me a kiss and said I'll see you later then. A few hours passed and I went to the bar they were at, she came to me and started chatting to me. She then went off back with her mates for about 1/2 hour then came back. We started talking and after a few minutes she started to cry, I tried to find out what was wrong but she didn't explain, her cousin came over and asked If i was being horrible to her, and she said no its the opposite, he's being too nice. I then tried to talk to her more, trying to stop her crying and she just cried even more, she wouldn't let me touch her and told me to leave her alone. I finally managed to get her to come outside where it was quiet but she still didn't say what was wrong. She then got her coat to leave so I followed her out, I said enough is enough and demanded to know, She started saying about her mate Sam, how I shouldn't be with her but her friend instead, how all the guys go after her and that she is left on the sideline. I asked why she was saying this and she said it was the truth. She's not good enough for me and that I should be with someone like Sam instead, a girl who will be there for me when I need her and depend on me. I asked why she was saying all this, and she said its what everyone thinks, I'm an idiot for being with her. And when I asked if her friends have been saying that tonight she broke down again nodding her head. She said she doesn't ever want to lose me. I explained that after trying to get with my GF for a year before we made any progress surely that shows how much I like her, each time I say my feelings the further she backs away so I haven't even told her I love her incase she gets scared away. After sitting on the side walk for an hour chatting we eventually joined her mates. She left me for about 40mins and I couldn't see where she was so I asked someone where she was and they said she went home 10 mins ago. So I sent her a text saying that I'm going home, I then got a text off her about an hour later saying "I cant cope, **** this I give it all up". This morning I txt her asking if she was still coming over and she replied with No. I then asked if I'd done anything wrong and she said No. I then said "I don't know whats going on here, but I hope you sort it and feel better soon. She then replied "feel better soon? Im not ill u ****ing idiot. Im angry, upset and last night if I wasn't so drunk that I couldn't do any real damage then I'd be in A&E or dead" After saying about how much I care and want her to be Ok, she just sent me a text saying "Leave.Go. Don't bother. I'm calling it quits" - I don't know if that was her way of breaking up with me. I said I cant, I made that mistake before when I 1st met her and this type of thing happened. And I'll leave her be for now as obviously I'm making things worse, and maybe we can talk about this later. I dont know what to do, I don't know if shell come round but I don't want to lose her again. 1st time she did this was after the 2nd date she told me to leave her alone, a few months later she said that it was the biggest mistake she's made. She suffers from depression and has self harmed a fair few times when she was younger. So I can't just tell her as it is, especially after the texts she sent last night saying that she wants to end it all and she can't cope. I apologised to her for leaving and explained that I thought she went home before me so there was no point staying out, turns out she stayed till the end of the night. When I got those texts saying she can't cope, I got out of bed and started walking round town till 5:30 in the morning to find her in case she tried walking home. Do I leave it for a few day's and see if she speaks to me 1st? Do I text her tomorrow and hope she's picked up a bit? What would you do? and please don't say dump her and forget about her as I can't do that, not until she makes me | |||
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