| Hi apologies in advance but this may be long. My husband is addicted to cannibis. Some would say not a big deal, but in my life it is a massive deal since although undiagnosed I swear my husband suffers from drug induced pyschosis. Ok I'm not a doctor but his GP has referred him urgently to mental health. I was waiting for the referral to come through as that felt like light at the end of a very dark tunnel. He smokes and becomes a monster, if he isn't verbally abusing me he is talking the most amount of crap I have ever heard. He claims cannibis high makes him more intelligent, and artistic. However it makes him disjointed and come across as he is rambling and very narcissistic. When he isn't smoking (after it wears off) he is the opposite absolutely lovely. His latest he left the house today and all was fine but I knew he was going to smoke. He has been smoking for the past 18 months. His latest he returned home kissed me after 10 minu tes of him sending tweets to himself!!!! Then he said from today onwards when he is in the house I should only communicate with him by text or via Facebook!!!! He has moved into the living room and that is the end of it. If I 'love' him I should accept that he wants this. He just topped it off with a text message that makes lots of sense(verbatum): 'today I want a divorce. Before I go to sleep every night I will send you my last message. In it I will right if today I want a divorce or I want a wife. By valentine day I will count which one weighs more. If divorce is something I want everyday that I live with you, them I will have the paperwork ready for you to sign on April's pay day. It's a Friday for me.#ioUaxxam' So when he smokes weed he doesn't want to be married and when he isn't on it I'm the best bloody thing that has happened to him and he is blessed I am in his life!!! He is very insecure when he isn't on weed and is frustrated with his job. I noticed a pattern that when he had bad days at work he would smoke. I earn more than him and that seems to bother him, hence his frustrations with work. I tried to involve his family, they have seen it full effect and I was glad as it meant they could understand he needs help. I guess so far I haven't given enough examples of the crazy activities but it was enough for his GP to refer him to mental health. His family decided that I am to blame, apparently his mothers logic - I should quit my job as it is a reminder to him ( what century is she in). His dad has alcohol addiction so she is imparting great advice - stick by your husband forget about what you want! Examples, he decided whilst high he has cancer! He announced it on twitter and called his boss and took time off work! I was cringing when his work came home to discuss the cancer! His latest today is that he is 'disabled' by short term memory loss (hello it is the weed that makes him forgetful). He has had bouts where he is conducting experiments so I'm not allowed to use the water in the house at all. His artistic side that comes out is disturbing. His cousin once started laughing, when I asked her why she was laughing she said she was nervous because the pictures look like a crazy person has done them. He goes out and about and pretends to be deaf or blind or both, clearly sane people know he isn't. All in all I'm waffling on and now at the end of my tether because I know there is a great person in there, I feel as his wife I should see him through this as his family will turn a blind eye and whether I stay or leave I will be the reason for his addiction. Equally I feel like its time to go and not look back, I feel stupid for allowing myself to be treated in this way but I know he is ill. He is making me feel insane! I need help I couldn't post this last night as he switched the wifi off! This morning he comes in my room asking what time I'm going to work. I mentioned to him that he said I was not to speak to him only via text- to which he replied - I thought I would be civil today. What the hell! | |||
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