Hey guys. So today my fiance started crying because I was in yet another bad mood. I was trying to find military discharge documents for a background packet I need to complete so I can have a shot at getting a great paying job. I wasn't taking it out on her. I was angry and frustrated at myself for losing such an important document. The thing is though, it wasn't just the paperwork I miss placed I was mad about. I have been under so much financial stress lately. I'm the only one working in the household. She's 34 weeks pregnant. And her emotions are going crazy. So when I'm in a bad mood, she takes it personally and then starts to cry.
I sat down with her and told her that I'm trying to keep my cool about my stupidity and loosing things. And that part of the reason why I have been in increasingly bad moods is because I'm worried about our finances. I'm barely staying afloat as it is. I've cut everything off. No more cable, I dropped my health insurance (fiance and baby are on medicaid). I want to get rid of my car and buy a cheaper one, but I'm underwater with it.
I've looked into a second job, but its difficult finding another one to work around my schedule and let me have one day off every couple of weeks. My fiance is 34 weeks. Which means 5-6 weeks till baby is here. And I want to spend time with my daughter and not be away from home 60 or more hours a week.
A friend told me I need to convince my fiance in finding a part-time job, but its not right of me to ask her to work during her 8th month of pregnancy. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I'm failing at being a father already. Anyways, thanks for hearing me rant. I don't like burdening my family and friends with these issues. No one, outside of my father and fiance, really knows how bad things are.
I sat down with her and told her that I'm trying to keep my cool about my stupidity and loosing things. And that part of the reason why I have been in increasingly bad moods is because I'm worried about our finances. I'm barely staying afloat as it is. I've cut everything off. No more cable, I dropped my health insurance (fiance and baby are on medicaid). I want to get rid of my car and buy a cheaper one, but I'm underwater with it.
I've looked into a second job, but its difficult finding another one to work around my schedule and let me have one day off every couple of weeks. My fiance is 34 weeks. Which means 5-6 weeks till baby is here. And I want to spend time with my daughter and not be away from home 60 or more hours a week.
A friend told me I need to convince my fiance in finding a part-time job, but its not right of me to ask her to work during her 8th month of pregnancy. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I'm failing at being a father already. Anyways, thanks for hearing me rant. I don't like burdening my family and friends with these issues. No one, outside of my father and fiance, really knows how bad things are.
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