We broke up about 4 months ago now.. and last week, we saw each other for the first time in 6 weeks. When we broke up it was because he felt it had become stale, was no longer in love with me, etc. and I wasn't happy with how he treated me. We were together for 4 years.
I haven't really dated anyone since, and he hasn't, as far as I know. When we broke up, it seemed like I loved him more than he did me, and he really wanted us to stay close friends, but I found it too difficult at first, and thought the best way to get over him would be to not have contact and see him.
After a bit of time I thought I was over him, and I just messaged him asking how things were etc. and if he'd like to catch up one day. He agreed. Our emails and texts were fairly casual, but he has never really been good at keeping in contact/writing long mails etc., even when we were together.
Anyway, we met in a pub. When he saw me walk over, he looked really happy. We caught up and stuff and had a good laugh, and I found him to be a little flirty.
I've been working out a lot since we broke up, and he was touching my stomach and arm muscles and that sort of stuff and made one or two flirty comments.
He invited me back to the flat where we used to live together for a drink, and seemed keen for me to stay the night, even offering me to stay over if it was too late for me to get back, but I didn't.
Anyway, I sat on the sofa, and he sat on it and put his legs over me, like he did when we were going out. The conversation got a little flirty, and took a slightly sexual turn.
Nothing at all happened, but when I got up to leave, we hugged for about 20 minutes. We were just hugging tightly, and then he had some tears in his eyes. He said, I've missed you, baby. And then held my hands.
I said I had missed him too.. and then I left.
I texted saying it'd been great to see him, I had fun etc. and he replied the same. We've texted a little since then, but it's mainly been me initiating it.
I think seeing him again has made some of the feelings come back. But it was mainly him who wanted to break up for good, whereas I had wanted to work at our problems.
I'm very confused, after the other night, and haven't said anything about it.Do you think it sounds like he still has feelings/wants to be with me, or is it difficult to say just from that? Part of me wants to try again. I had believed myself more or less over him, but now all the feelings have come back..
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