I'm so ultimately confused about this question that I'm wondering whether asking completely unbiased strangers will help!
I've been with my boyfriend since 15 (I am now 20, nearly 21). We've had some really great times together. He's probably my best mate as well as my boyfriend. Over the years we've had the odd falling out, usually down to keeping up a long distance thing at uni. Quite often I've thought it's too serious for this age - that we should be out there being single while we're at uni etc - but I've always put that to the back of my mind because I figure, why throw away something special just to 'try out being single'? Seems stupid somehow. And I've also always figured that if we split, I wouldn't really want another boyfriend, and sleeping around doesn't appeal, so what's the point of breaking it off anyway?
But then, 6 months ago, it comes out he slept with a girl at uni. It took someone else to tell me. It was rough at the time but he assured me it was a one off thing, he was genuinely sorry, and I forgave him. In fact now he 'loves me more than ever', apparently. Only now, I'm realising I haven't really forgiven him. I'll be honest, I'm bitter and pissed off. I don't trust him. I feel like he's gone and had his 'single' phase, except he wasn't single when he did it. I wouldn't cheat on him, but I quite often feel like giving it up. Sometimes he will be pouring his heart out to me in 'love' and I'll smile but in my head I'm thinking 'I don't care'.
It might seem like an obvious choice, but then quite often were still very happy. We still have a good time, make each other laugh, and we're still best friends. I'm still really attracted to him. I care really deeply about him. I can't see myself being with someone else, and the thought of him with someone else is horrible. But is it already unfixable?
Idk, please just be honest!
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