I'm FlowerChild's Mr. I'm her boyfriend who's been crazy about her for years and I mean that literally.
I met her when we were exiting our pre-teens and entering teenage stage and I fell in love with her at first sight. You could just tell this girl was something else. Time went on, neither of us expressed our love, I moved away to help my at the time dying mother (she's okay now) and FlowerChild met that guy. The guy who became her boyfriend, father of her son and who is now her ex because he beat her, tore her apart, hurt her son and held them hostage for over a year. And he almost killed them both. Now the f***er is in jail.
Then we re-connected, and now our adventure begins. Now, FlowerChild is not at all a difficult person. But her ex caused some major damage as you can expect.
I'm trying to figure out how to be the best boyfriend I can possibly be. I'm trying to figure out when to give advice, and when I should shut my mouth. I'm trying to figure out when I can hold her, and when I shouldn't just in case she experiences a flashback of her ex holding her down forcefully.
I mentioned we should attend couple's counseling just to get advice from a professional, but while we are waiting for that, we decided to come here. I never visited this site until she mentioned it.
She's not mean. She doesn't erupt drama. She doesn't cry out of nowhere. She doesn't have fits of rage. She treats me with a high level of respect and she's given trust in me which I sincerely appreciate and don't hold for granted.
But I know she's hurting. I know she feels somewhat guilty and I know her self esteem is crushed. She still takes care of herself and I know she's beautiful inside and out and I consider myself to be the luckiest guy ever.
Her son is a joy and I can feel myself attaching to him. He's such a wonderful kid and I'm honestly just floored and actually very happy.
But I want to be the best boyfriend I can be, and eventually be the best step-father I can be. Obviously I know to never bash the kid's dad and I won't and don't (in front of him) though I do feel anger and resentment toward him because how could you treat them like this and have no remorse? It's disturbing and sickening and I can't feel compassion for him. He almost killed them. But I'll let that anger go.
Anyways, hoping to get some good feedback here. I genuinely love and care and I want to be the best that I can be for them.
I met her when we were exiting our pre-teens and entering teenage stage and I fell in love with her at first sight. You could just tell this girl was something else. Time went on, neither of us expressed our love, I moved away to help my at the time dying mother (she's okay now) and FlowerChild met that guy. The guy who became her boyfriend, father of her son and who is now her ex because he beat her, tore her apart, hurt her son and held them hostage for over a year. And he almost killed them both. Now the f***er is in jail.
Then we re-connected, and now our adventure begins. Now, FlowerChild is not at all a difficult person. But her ex caused some major damage as you can expect.
I'm trying to figure out how to be the best boyfriend I can possibly be. I'm trying to figure out when to give advice, and when I should shut my mouth. I'm trying to figure out when I can hold her, and when I shouldn't just in case she experiences a flashback of her ex holding her down forcefully.
I mentioned we should attend couple's counseling just to get advice from a professional, but while we are waiting for that, we decided to come here. I never visited this site until she mentioned it.
She's not mean. She doesn't erupt drama. She doesn't cry out of nowhere. She doesn't have fits of rage. She treats me with a high level of respect and she's given trust in me which I sincerely appreciate and don't hold for granted.
But I know she's hurting. I know she feels somewhat guilty and I know her self esteem is crushed. She still takes care of herself and I know she's beautiful inside and out and I consider myself to be the luckiest guy ever.
Her son is a joy and I can feel myself attaching to him. He's such a wonderful kid and I'm honestly just floored and actually very happy.
But I want to be the best boyfriend I can be, and eventually be the best step-father I can be. Obviously I know to never bash the kid's dad and I won't and don't (in front of him) though I do feel anger and resentment toward him because how could you treat them like this and have no remorse? It's disturbing and sickening and I can't feel compassion for him. He almost killed them. But I'll let that anger go.
Anyways, hoping to get some good feedback here. I genuinely love and care and I want to be the best that I can be for them.
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