Here is my issue.I'm 28 years old.I'm still living with my parents. I haven't worked since 2010.I don't have a drivers license and never have had one.In 2006,I had a back injury. One day while I was working with the injury, I remember thinking to myself something like,"I don't have to go through this."Ill learn how to drive,so I can open up my work options." I was motivated to learn how to drive.
I went to the DMV and got a permit, I went to a couple driving lessons with my dad,and after some struggles,I cried.After that,I pretty much gave up driving.In February 2013,I decided I would improve my intelligence and become more well rounded by reading books.My goal was read 12 books in 2013. I read 30 pages a day for 3 straight days then stopped.It seems I am the type of person who sees a challenge and sort of runs.....
It doesn't seem like I've matured much in the last 8-13 years.I remember the summer after my freshmen year of high school,all I did was sit around the house and do things that entertained me,such as watching television and listening to music.And thats pretty much my problem now.I always want to do what is pleasurable.Delayed gratification is a problem with me..My question is how can you get that motivation if it doesn't come naturally to you?Also I've never kissed a woman or had a girlfriend.I know that I'll never get the respect of women in my current state.
Eariler today,I was on the internet searching "Jobs that pay 30 dollars an hour". After about seven minutes of reading an article listing the jobs,my brain began to wander a bit...I got a bit disinterested, it felt almost as if it was making me think too much. The first remotely productive thing I've done in months outside of housework, and I don't think I responded very well.
But again, it's hard for me to get that motivation...How can you get that motivation if it doesn't come naturally to you? What do you guys think my problem is?
I went to the DMV and got a permit, I went to a couple driving lessons with my dad,and after some struggles,I cried.After that,I pretty much gave up driving.In February 2013,I decided I would improve my intelligence and become more well rounded by reading books.My goal was read 12 books in 2013. I read 30 pages a day for 3 straight days then stopped.It seems I am the type of person who sees a challenge and sort of runs.....
It doesn't seem like I've matured much in the last 8-13 years.I remember the summer after my freshmen year of high school,all I did was sit around the house and do things that entertained me,such as watching television and listening to music.And thats pretty much my problem now.I always want to do what is pleasurable.Delayed gratification is a problem with me..My question is how can you get that motivation if it doesn't come naturally to you?Also I've never kissed a woman or had a girlfriend.I know that I'll never get the respect of women in my current state.
Eariler today,I was on the internet searching "Jobs that pay 30 dollars an hour". After about seven minutes of reading an article listing the jobs,my brain began to wander a bit...I got a bit disinterested, it felt almost as if it was making me think too much. The first remotely productive thing I've done in months outside of housework, and I don't think I responded very well.
But again, it's hard for me to get that motivation...How can you get that motivation if it doesn't come naturally to you? What do you guys think my problem is?
Put the internet to work for you.
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