Warning this is just a vent/rant!!!
I could &@$/ing scream I'm so done with this marriage.
I can't even remember the last time we had sex! We were going to 3 weeks ago started fooling around and I got too excited and ended up giving him a BJ but he promised that night would be the night. That night and every other for three came and went!
Sometime during Hanukkah he "tried" to initiate. Which is basically a few seconds of rubbing my a$$ and then trying to stimulate me in other ways with his hand. BORING!!! First time in our marriage I turned him down. I wasn't getting off (too mad at our situation) and I refused to give in and just let him do his thing so that we could say we did it.
I'm done! If he's not gonna start to $&@$ me the way I need it then I don't want it! I'm done being pathetic! I'm not!
We went to our holiday work party and I haven't seen my workers in a while I'm off on mat leave. Almost every one of the guys commented about how they couldn't believe I was a mother of two, or how good I looked. I was shocked! No idea what to say or how to react but after if made me think well geez if guys still think I look great I can't be that bad!
Holidays have come and gone pretty much and no sex in sight for us. I made him all his favorite foods; latkes, schnitzels, meat pies, rum balls, fudge, shortbread, turkey, etc each day I pray a little today would be the day!
I'm done! 2015 is gonna be me making sure our commercial debt is 0 before I decide to leave but I'm gonna leave. I never signed up for a life of celibacy. It's not fair to me. I'm a great wife. I have a great career, I take car of my babies, I workout, I love life and happiness. I deserve to be wanted and desired!
Ugh! Just needed to barf that somewhere! Thx! (Not gonna edit errors I'm on mobile sorry!)
I could &@$/ing scream I'm so done with this marriage.
I can't even remember the last time we had sex! We were going to 3 weeks ago started fooling around and I got too excited and ended up giving him a BJ but he promised that night would be the night. That night and every other for three came and went!
Sometime during Hanukkah he "tried" to initiate. Which is basically a few seconds of rubbing my a$$ and then trying to stimulate me in other ways with his hand. BORING!!! First time in our marriage I turned him down. I wasn't getting off (too mad at our situation) and I refused to give in and just let him do his thing so that we could say we did it.
I'm done! If he's not gonna start to $&@$ me the way I need it then I don't want it! I'm done being pathetic! I'm not!
We went to our holiday work party and I haven't seen my workers in a while I'm off on mat leave. Almost every one of the guys commented about how they couldn't believe I was a mother of two, or how good I looked. I was shocked! No idea what to say or how to react but after if made me think well geez if guys still think I look great I can't be that bad!
Holidays have come and gone pretty much and no sex in sight for us. I made him all his favorite foods; latkes, schnitzels, meat pies, rum balls, fudge, shortbread, turkey, etc each day I pray a little today would be the day!
I'm done! 2015 is gonna be me making sure our commercial debt is 0 before I decide to leave but I'm gonna leave. I never signed up for a life of celibacy. It's not fair to me. I'm a great wife. I have a great career, I take car of my babies, I workout, I love life and happiness. I deserve to be wanted and desired!
Ugh! Just needed to barf that somewhere! Thx! (Not gonna edit errors I'm on mobile sorry!)
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