In the past, some really negative things happened to me where I was forced into intimacy. I told my partner that I don't like it when he does anything that looks like forcing. If he doesn't ask at all, it really upsets me. I react with anger, disappointment and just close off to him. I a couple weeks ago, we had a good heart to heart, but it seems like I have to remind him again and again. This morning, for example, he kept putting his genitals in my hand while I was trying to sleep. It woke me up, but I pretended to be asleep still. I would move my hand and he would put it back in. I have told him before that I don't like it at all. Then, he gets frustrated because I don't have a sex drive at all. I'm working on it because it's a medical issue, but because he's so frustrated with it, he keeps trying to rush it and force things. Which delays things further because I completely shut down. I feel like he then starts blaming me because I haven't been affecti onate with him enough. Well, when he does those things, I can't. I feel closed to everyone at that point. This isn't the only issue though. We used to sit down and talk. We would have heart to hearts a lot, but we don't do that any more. Though, I try to. He doesn't spend any quality time with me any more. He seems to be busier than he has before. I asked him about it to see what was going on, and he says it's basically all my fault. I haven't been open with him any more so he doesn't want to be around. I feel like our relationship is falling apart. I'm getting really tired of it. We've been together for a long while, years, and I don't want it to end. Yet, this keeps happening. He seems to disregard when I say I can't have sex. He gets so desperate, that he just does what he wants in the end. I feel like it's less forgetting and just wanting it so much that he just takes it. I don't want to think this way. I don't know what to do any more. I tell him what not to do and it s eems to not mean anything any more. We renewed our relationship three months ago and it was great but now. It seems that we are in a bad place again. We hardly ever talk. If we ever try to, it leads into an argument. I don't know what to do any more. Neither of us see breaking up as an option. We have a son, so we have to fix it.
Not only this, he has a fetish I strongly disagree with. Not anything illegal, but just something that turns me off strongly. He keeps trying to get me to do it. I don't want to go into it too much, but he keeps trying to give me benefits on why it would be good for me too. He researches a lot on how this would be good for survival and such. It would be very taxing for me to do. I guess, I should just come out and say it. He wants to be treated like a baby for intimate things. He wants to wear a diaper and wants me to breast feed him. We tried talking about this before, but I told him that I just wasn't ready. He's gotten tired of waiting for me and starts telling me that lactating will help me lose weight and has many other uses. It's just frustrating and I don't know how to deal with it.
Not only this, he has a fetish I strongly disagree with. Not anything illegal, but just something that turns me off strongly. He keeps trying to get me to do it. I don't want to go into it too much, but he keeps trying to give me benefits on why it would be good for me too. He researches a lot on how this would be good for survival and such. It would be very taxing for me to do. I guess, I should just come out and say it. He wants to be treated like a baby for intimate things. He wants to wear a diaper and wants me to breast feed him. We tried talking about this before, but I told him that I just wasn't ready. He's gotten tired of waiting for me and starts telling me that lactating will help me lose weight and has many other uses. It's just frustrating and I don't know how to deal with it.
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