Its been 2.5 years in R for me and my WH. It has been extremely bumpy most of the way through but for the last 6 months we have been doing really well. I want this to work so badly and he is finally pulling his weight and doing everything he should have been doing since day 1. I look at him in a much better light than I have this whole time, but for some reason I am triggering and feel dead inside. There is nothing going on, most everything is going right, but as much as I want our marriage is as much as it is weighing me down. I thought I was stronger. I am constantly telling myself to stop being the victim and look at what I do have. This is what I fought for and now I have it, and maybe that is the problem. I have it, but I know in the back of my mind that I had to fight hard to get here for someone who just cast me aside. Spouse is remorseful. I appreciate all that, but I can't get back what I once thought I had and I get mad at myself for b eing so weak at times. Life is good but I am stuck and hollow inside. Is this normal still so far out in R? What is the cause if there are no major things triggering me and life is good?
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