I met her at uni. At first I was reluctant, yet she was interested. And single. She would flirt with me, talk to me, pass me drinks and be quite direct. I guess was a little blind and didn't notice. We went out as 'mates' to a club a few times, and she would never refuse my hands round her waist. She was confident, and she would introduce me to a lot of people. She'd often rub down against me when we we're dancing. I thought it was rather clear what she was heading at then.
I realized it a bit late, but I went after her. I spoke to her, and clearly indicated that I don't want us to be just friends. We got a date together, but then she kept moving it, saying that she's busy with uni work. I spoke to her again, and it turned out that someone else had taken my place as her **** buddy.
But it didn't work out for her. Twice. And when I had another chat with her, she hit me with a bombshell that she never felt anything for me, and that it would be best if we would remain friends. What was she playing at? Or am I getting the wrong impression that she felt something for me? Weirdly though, she'd even throw little odd clues like "I'd love to settle with someone quiet". Ironically, I'm sort of the quiet chap. I've never been in a serious relationship. I can open up to confidence, however only when I know people around me. I can feel anxious when meeting new people. Not always, but majority of the times. Depends on the atmosphere.
Reluctantly, I accepted the friendzone. Eventually, we had a small argument over a petty thing and got rid of each other on Facebook etc. She felt like I wanted something from her (she couldn't tell me that directly, instead I saw it on her Twitter, and heard it from her mates the next day), and I couldn't really understand what it was. I realized my mistake, but friends keep telling me that she is not worth the chasing at all. I tried moving on but it's tough. I've been making new friends with women, or even on Tinder for a laugh (the fact that I have no matches isn't exactly helping, but I suppose you can't be too serious about Tinder), but while there's nothing exquisitely special about her from other women I've met, my thoughts keep going back to her.
How do I move on then? Do you have any ways you move on from a crush? Is it worth to fix an awkward relation, and man up and apologize?
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