Earlier this evening, my H was trying to cut a super cheesy pizza and it wasn't cutting right. He threw the cutter down, said "It's ruined now" and stormed out. I didn't say anything, just continued making our daughter's birthday cake. A while later, I left the kitchen for a moment and on my way back in, heard a glass shatter and my husband hurled a slice of the pizza across the room screaming at the dogs to just eat it. Turns out, he had bumped the wall and knocked a mug down. Not a special mug, just a hunk of glass. What the dogs and the pizza had to do with it, I'll never know. He started getting super irate and I pointed down the hall and said "Go to bed. I'll clean it up." He just looked at me and asked if I had just told him to go to bed. I said "Yes. I told you, when you're drinking all day, you get mean and angry." He responded with "F*** you!" and went to the room.
I let him cool down for awhile before going in to tell him that he had scared our daughter, again, and that that was not a normal reaction to a broken glass. He told me not to talk to him so I left. When I went back an hour later, he had locked the door and gone to sleep. This was around 7:30 or so. He had to be up at 10 to get ready for work, so I went to my parents' house and returned at 10 to make sure he was getting up. If he sleeps in, it's always my fault for not waking him despite him having an alarm set.
Anyway, we didn't say much but when he was ready, he started to leave without giving me a kiss or saying goodbye. When I asked, he gave a crappy kiss and walked out. I asked him what he was angry about now. He said "nothing." Unfortunately, I can't keep my damn mouth shut and yelled after him "This has to stop. You're an alcoholic." He responded with "You're a b1*ch!" I didn't say anything more but he came back in, threw his cell phone in my general direction and said "I want a divorce. I'm tired of being called an alcoholic." So I came back with "Maybe you should stop drinking." But he said "No. I want a divorce."
This all happened right in front of our 13 year old and 5 year old. I'm crushed. My first marriage ended because my X was more interested in his drugs than he was me and our children. Now I'm losing another one to an addiction. I keep asking myself why we aren't good enough to love more than his beer. I used to be an addict and when it came down to losing my kids, I got clean immediately. It was a matter of "These people are my life, I will not lose them" and I was done, so why doesn't he say that about us? Why is the stupid drinking so much more important than his wife and kids?
I let him cool down for awhile before going in to tell him that he had scared our daughter, again, and that that was not a normal reaction to a broken glass. He told me not to talk to him so I left. When I went back an hour later, he had locked the door and gone to sleep. This was around 7:30 or so. He had to be up at 10 to get ready for work, so I went to my parents' house and returned at 10 to make sure he was getting up. If he sleeps in, it's always my fault for not waking him despite him having an alarm set.
Anyway, we didn't say much but when he was ready, he started to leave without giving me a kiss or saying goodbye. When I asked, he gave a crappy kiss and walked out. I asked him what he was angry about now. He said "nothing." Unfortunately, I can't keep my damn mouth shut and yelled after him "This has to stop. You're an alcoholic." He responded with "You're a b1*ch!" I didn't say anything more but he came back in, threw his cell phone in my general direction and said "I want a divorce. I'm tired of being called an alcoholic." So I came back with "Maybe you should stop drinking." But he said "No. I want a divorce."
This all happened right in front of our 13 year old and 5 year old. I'm crushed. My first marriage ended because my X was more interested in his drugs than he was me and our children. Now I'm losing another one to an addiction. I keep asking myself why we aren't good enough to love more than his beer. I used to be an addict and when it came down to losing my kids, I got clean immediately. It was a matter of "These people are my life, I will not lose them" and I was done, so why doesn't he say that about us? Why is the stupid drinking so much more important than his wife and kids?
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