My semi-original thread is here for background.
http://ift.tt/1dKAarB
So the summary update is that it's now 17 months with ZERO sex. No HJ, no BJ, no mutual masturbation. Zip. I invested in the Tenga Flip Hole male device which I can use to simulate the act effectively and produces a strong powerful orgasm but its just another way of masturbating frankly. I've focused on myself and am in the best fitness of my life and lowest BF % ever working out 5 times a week.
We've had no discussions in 4.5 months on the topic. I've had few opportunities to initiate due to travel, one of us sick, kids having sleepovers here or some other reason. She has lost 85% of the weight she wanted to and is getting close to her goal. Once at goal she can get the surgery she needs to resolve the issue with being able to hold her urine during activity or coughing/sneezing. Rough childbirth 18 years ago.
Mainly I have had the following feelings once or more in the last 6 months scaring the crap out of me:
I'm not attracted to my wife sexually
I don't like my wife
She doesn't want to have sex so why should I initiate
I'm better off masturbating
I love her and the kids so much but I guess my sex life is screwed
I'm indifferent to the sex, I have a good life just enjoy it and masturbate
I crave intimacy with another human and want to have an affair
I think I might be losing my freaking mind. How have some of you wrestled with these same thoughts. I know I should be seeing a counselor but can't until next month.
http://ift.tt/1dKAarB
So the summary update is that it's now 17 months with ZERO sex. No HJ, no BJ, no mutual masturbation. Zip. I invested in the Tenga Flip Hole male device which I can use to simulate the act effectively and produces a strong powerful orgasm but its just another way of masturbating frankly. I've focused on myself and am in the best fitness of my life and lowest BF % ever working out 5 times a week.
We've had no discussions in 4.5 months on the topic. I've had few opportunities to initiate due to travel, one of us sick, kids having sleepovers here or some other reason. She has lost 85% of the weight she wanted to and is getting close to her goal. Once at goal she can get the surgery she needs to resolve the issue with being able to hold her urine during activity or coughing/sneezing. Rough childbirth 18 years ago.
Mainly I have had the following feelings once or more in the last 6 months scaring the crap out of me:
I'm not attracted to my wife sexually
I don't like my wife
She doesn't want to have sex so why should I initiate
I'm better off masturbating
I love her and the kids so much but I guess my sex life is screwed
I'm indifferent to the sex, I have a good life just enjoy it and masturbate
I crave intimacy with another human and want to have an affair
I think I might be losing my freaking mind. How have some of you wrestled with these same thoughts. I know I should be seeing a counselor but can't until next month.
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